Website

I'm currently in the process of setting up a website, one of those sign up free sites. not all the professinal perhaps but I can't yet justify the cost, no matter how small as yet. it'll be few days before I publish it on the net, a few days in which to get some content up on it. At this point it will be information only and may be for some time until I generate enough interest to use it to promote and sell anything, I have no intention however of promoting or selling anything I myself wouldn't want or need and haven't in fact actually bought and used. An unusual way of doing things perhaps but I find it impossible to do otherwise and am thus resoled to stop trying, it simply goes against my nature, comes off forced and un-natural and it shows. I doubt I'll ever be much of a salesman, or woman in my case so I might as well just stick to things that interest me and see what comes of it.

New Begingings

God it is so good to have proper internet access again. From March to June I was unemployed, that is three whole months of no income. With no money to pay my rent, I spent most of June sleeping in the back of my car. For those who live up North, June is early winter here in Australia. As I live by the coast, showers were taking cold at public beach batherooms. I have never so highly regarded common varity soap before in my life. Cheap soap to wash myself, wash my hair and better yet, use the public sinks in order to wash my clothes. Bloody hell, excuse my aussie slang, I hope I never have to do something like that again. I'm too damn proup to ask for goverment assassitence, besides, I've being there and done that before and the system is a damn joke as far as I =can tell, not very helpful at all.

Anyway, I survived and during that time I decieded to become as self sufficent as possible, learn to grow my own food, set up a website by which I can hopefull earn money and if worst comes to worst, at least I won't half starve like I did this time trying to make my money last. It became easier once I had a job, even though it was a long two weeks before my first pay got in. First thing I did was find a cheap place to stay. Share accomidation of course but god it was so good to have a proper bed to sleep in, to have hot showers again, to wash all my clothes properly, buy up some decent food and eat properily again.

I've always being too skinny and it frankly scared me how so very thin I had become. Bordering anerixic probably. It was horrible, terrifing because I don't have any delusions that I'm fat like some do, I would actually like to but on my weight then I do. I'm running out of time now, Sonia