God it is so good to have proper internet access again. From March to June I was unemployed, that is three whole months of no income. With no money to pay my rent, I spent most of June sleeping in the back of my car. For those who live up North, June is early winter here in Australia. As I live by the coast, showers were taking cold at public beach batherooms. I have never so highly regarded common varity soap before in my life. Cheap soap to wash myself, wash my hair and better yet, use the public sinks in order to wash my clothes. Bloody hell, excuse my aussie slang, I hope I never have to do something like that again. I'm too damn proup to ask for goverment assassitence, besides, I've being there and done that before and the system is a damn joke as far as I =can tell, not very helpful at all.
Anyway, I survived and during that time I decieded to become as self sufficent as possible, learn to grow my own food, set up a website by which I can hopefull earn money and if worst comes to worst, at least I won't half starve like I did this time trying to make my money last. It became easier once I had a job, even though it was a long two weeks before my first pay got in. First thing I did was find a cheap place to stay. Share accomidation of course but god it was so good to have a proper bed to sleep in, to have hot showers again, to wash all my clothes properly, buy up some decent food and eat properily again.
I've always being too skinny and it frankly scared me how so very thin I had become. Bordering anerixic probably. It was horrible, terrifing because I don't have any delusions that I'm fat like some do, I would actually like to but on my weight then I do. I'm running out of time now, Sonia
